On the occasion of Canada’s fourth National Day for Truth and Reconciliation, First Nations Pastor Gordon Mills recounts how the enduring impact of residential schools has deeply affected his family. Determined to pave a new path for future generations, Mills, who now leads Sudbury First Nations Church, disclosed his battle with complex PTSD stemming from his upbringing in Moose Factory on Ontario’s James Bay Coast.
Although Mills did not attend a residential school, his mother did. At the tender age of five, she was taken to Chapleau, miles away from her home. She returned with a mere Grade 3 education and little knowledge of family life, eventually marrying an alcoholic non-Indigenous man. Their challenging circumstances led to a tumultuous upbringing for Mills and his siblings.
Tragically, his siblings faced various adversities as a result of their upbringing. His oldest brother fell victim to gang violence, while his oldest sister succumbed to diabetes complications after undergoing leg amputation. Another sibling battled alcoholism, leading to opioid addiction and a fatal outcome. The cycle of trauma culminated in a violent confrontation between siblings, resulting in a tragic loss.
Despite the turmoil, Mills found solace in faith and pursued a career in ministry. However, the trauma resurfaced when he was confronted with officiating his brother’s funeral, who had been murdered. Overwhelmed by his family’s history of pain, Mills stepped away from the ministry, delving into a career in corrections before returning to lead Sudbury First Nations Church upon retirement.
Reflecting on the church’s role in the residential school system, Mills emphasized the importance of distinguishing the message from the messengers. His congregation, a diverse mix of Indigenous families, newcomers, and local non-Indigenous parishioners, prioritizes cultural inclusivity while upholding Christian beliefs. In an effort to foster healing and unity, the church hosts community events and services that respect Indigenous culture and traditions.
This Truth and Reconciliation Day, the church is organizing a community barbecue as part of ongoing reconciliation efforts. For Mills, breaking the cycle of intergenerational trauma and fostering healing for his family and community remains a steadfast commitment.
A national Indian Residential School Crisis Line is available for former students and affected individuals seeking support. Emotional and crisis referral services can be accessed by calling the 24-hour national crisis line at 1-866-925-4419.